I’ve been looking through old photo albums of me when I was little and I remember all the days, and why I was doing whatever I’m doing, I like looking at them I guess, mainly because I was so happy, and I had no worries and I was completely oblivious to problems and bad things, that is certainly not the case now though. I haven’t been so happy lately and it’s becoming depressing, this week has really put things in perspective in terms of so many things, but it unfortunately was a really bad week I guess. God, I really don’t want to be here anymore.
Today was my brother Elijah’s 15th birthday, but I didn’t even know the day/date so I totally forgot, haha, I didn’t even see him much today because he was in Perth and I was at Erin’s, well basically where I am every weekend because we do the simplest and smallest things, but they all seem to be hilarious and fun somehow, aha. It’s funny lately when talking to people I think about saying when I’m free to catch up and organize actually doing something, and no like, free relaxed time comes to mind! These days I have SO much work, even if it’s not even catch up work, fuck! School is just becoming so consuming and I don’t remember it ever being as bad as it has been these days! I can’t be bothered anymore and I just don’t know what to do about it all, ahh it’s just so haunting I guess? I just wish I could go back to relaxing on my weekends instead of spending every second thought on worrying about school related bullshit!
This year is going fast and things seam like they’re coming closer, this is good in a sense, but not a very comforting thought at all. Tonight is the last day of holidays and that has to be in the top 10 of worst feelings ever! Wow, I know I have so, so much to do this semester, well school-wise anyway and it’s actually really depressing! I just need to get away from this for a while, with the people I actually like.
My family literally drive me crazy aha! I mean they’re okay but I just can’t wait to leave! I seriously don’t know why my parents chose to live in this small random little shit town, when they have been all over the world and seen and lived in amazing and suitable places, god!?
Ahhh, it’s the holidays and I’m really fucking sick, for me that’s just typical! My two favorite people Erin and Mitchell are in Bali and will be for majority of the holidays, and it’s shit! I can’t really do anything so I’m just in my room, I really wanted to be at the gym a lot these holidays but I don’t think that’s going to happen now. I’m so angry and I just wish my friends were here and not there, but I guess things can never be the way I want them. Hopefully I’m better by the end of the week, but that’s still one of my weeks wasted. We’re in July and this year is going pretty fast, there is a whole heap of decisions I need to make in these two weeks, hmm I don’t know. I really miss my friends.
Haha, semi pointless post I guess.
Edit: Thank god I have Alex to talk to me all day and all night or else I’d die!
As always i had a really nice time with steph tonight! we went to china city and then watched ‘what to expect’ and the movies. She’s such a laugh and we always get on so so so well when we’re together (mainly the two of us), and must do it more often!
i’m now in bed by myself and watching criminal minds episodes, which probably isn’t the best idea while i’m alone and whoevers home is asleep. sunday tomorrow and then back to school for two weeks before explorus, sigh.
Haha, aww Mon! You too gurl! Love you! Ahhhh, outward bound!
Winter times girl.
This and the caption is hilarious!
Ahhh, soooo happy! I have finished all six of my exams! I had a very good afternoon and a good night! I have no school until next week! Hopefully on Friday Creasey Erin and I are going to Perth all day and night! This time next week I’m going to the zoo with my school! Then Sasha’s gathering that weekend! I’m excited, and finally have something to look forward to! Hahahaha
That’s my laptops desktop, unfortunately it has a new sticky note that I really wish was not up there; my exam time table! I have my English exam tomorrow and I really want to go because I obviously can’t miss it, but I’m really sick and haven’t recovered, thanks to Mitchell and Alex who kept me up last night until about ~2:30am! Also I sound even worse and it’s so embarrassing! I’m Completely winging this exam, as always, so lets hope I do okay in the viewing and reading section! -I find the writing section, well doable I guess. I’m very scared for my Earth and Environmental Science exam, ahh! I can’t wait until exams are over and thank god Sash is having a gathering after -the only thing that will get me through them! Hopefully I don’t get really stressed again, and hopefully no one does!
The only place that I’d go back to when it is freezing! Even though it’s warming up over there now.. Haha, god Bunbury is a shit hole!
Picture: Myself and Big Scary at GTM, god I really love them now!
I wish I looked like that now, instead of looking like death! Today I was meant to do about 20 hours of non stop studying, but I’m too sick to, and my eyes are watery too, ahh god knows how my exams are going to turn out… I really want to go and eat something, but I can’t taste anything so ahh I’m not sure.